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Hmm, happy New Year?

I am aware that after Boxing Day we have New Years Eve and … well, we don’t know 2021 will be any better than 2020 and I am feeling almost inclined to just let it slip in (so to speak) without any acknowledgement and take the attitude .. “It is what it is”

Frustration

This is going to sound like a rant, and maybe it is and perhaps I am just writing this for me to get some of the frustration out there, out of me! Much of the time I feel like an utter fraud with my health. In my mind I can just do all the things I used to do, no doubt about that at all. 10 mile walk? No problem! Walk up a mountain? Sure, swim a mile? Yeah, not an issue! I can carry heavy things, I can run, I can jump, I can do everything I ever did before and then some. So I get this disability benefits and think to myself that I shouldn’t be getting them, I am fine. Sure, I hurt like crazy every day and I feel tired all of the time but, that’s OK, I mean, that’ll clear up eventually, it’s just temporary, it’ll pass. What I cannot accept, despite all the evidence is that this is permanent, I am actually ‘disabled’. Earlier I saw a job offered and thought to myself, I can do that, it’s easy for me a role like that. Sure, £10 an hour is cra...