New Look, well, old look revisited

Hair short again, new specs (purple) … overweight!

The glasses are a freebie from Vision Express as I am still waiting, over a month later, for the ones I ordered!

I stopped taken the anti depression meds. I did feel some improvement with them but, I don’t much want to lose every morning and there was an issue they caused which I also didn’t much approve of. I have counselling soon anyway so let’s see what that does.

OMG! I am going to Download in June …. Muse, Hollywood Undead and loads of other bands you’ve probably never heard of but, even if it is raining and cold, how awesome is that! My first ever festival … OK, so no camping and getting drunk but, maybe next year though, they’d have to go some to top Muse.

Leonard Nimoy died (84), how sad. True, he couldn’t sing to save his life, his acting was exactly amazing but, he was Spock.

I so couldn’t resist this baby. Sure, I’m broke but, all the same, part of my getting well is getting things sorted that I need sorted. My current PC is good but, as the main household unit there were some failings and that isn’t acceptable.

It’s Official …. I am definitely considering the possibility of maybe moving on with some aspects of my life, we shall see, watch this space.

Was lovely to see Pete the other day and Chris, so glad he’s feeling better. Good also to have the occasional text from those I didn’t really pay much attention to but who’ve made a real effort to stay in touch with me since I left Facebook. I am still not really considering singing in again any time soon.

Looks like Northampton Borough Council might actually be getting their act in gear and sorting out my benefit claim on Monday … I won’t be holding my breath waiting though.

The Navigation thing in my car is playing up, trying to convince me I am using non Nissan software! Went into Nissan and they told me if I fork out £180 or so for new software it ‘might’ solve it. I told them to jog on!

Seems as though Robin may be getting his car within a couple of weeks too! It’s all happening now.

New Look, well, old look revisited

Hair short again, new specs (purple) … overweight!

The glasses are a freebie from Vision Express as I am still waiting, over a month later, for the ones I ordered!

I stopped taken the anti depression meds. I did feel some improvement with them but, I don’t much want to lose every morning and there was an issue they caused which I also didn’t much approve of. I have counselling soon anyway so let’s see what that does.

OMG! I am going to Download in June …. Muse, Hollywood Undead and loads of other bands you’ve probably never heard of but, even if it is raining and cold, how awesome is that! My first ever festival … OK, so no camping and getting drunk but, maybe next year though, they’d have to go some to top Muse.

Leonard Nimoy died (84), how sad. True, he couldn’t sing to save his life, his acting was exactly amazing but, he was Spock.

I so couldn’t resist this baby. Sure, I’m broke but, all the same, part of my getting well is getting things sorted that I need sorted. My current PC is good but, as the main household unit there were some failings and that isn’t acceptable.

It’s Official …. I am definitely considering the possibility of maybe moving on with some aspects of my life, we shall see, watch this space.

Was lovely to see Pete the other day and Chris, so glad he’s feeling better. Good also to have the occasional text from those I didn’t really pay much attention to but who’ve made a real effort to stay in touch with me since I left Facebook. I am still not really considering singing in again any time soon.

Looks like Northampton Borough Council might actually be getting their act in gear and sorting out my benefit claim on Monday … I won’t be holding my breath waiting though.

The Navigation thing in my car is playing up, trying to convince me I am using non Nissan software! Went into Nissan and they told me if I fork out £180 or so for new software it ‘might’ solve it. I told them to jog on!

Seems as though Robin may be getting his car within a couple of weeks too! It’s all happening now.

lol

You gotta love it when you sit at the PC to do something and then it asks for more details but you can’t remember them so you check it out and then you sign on and everything works but …. you can’t remember what you sat at the PC to do in the first place!

lol

You gotta love it when you sit at the PC to do something and then it asks for more details but you can’t remember them so you check it out and then you sign on and everything works but …. you can’t remember what you sat at the PC to do in the first place!

Glass half …

As I am familiar with my house I really don’t need to turn all the lights on. This in mind I walked into the bathroom to fill a glass with water, it’s just a small glass. So, there I am in the dark filling up this glass cleverly using a finger as a guide to when it’s near the top, I like to use my brain me!

Got back to my room to discover the glass was only half full. Thinking back, I had my damn finger under the tap!

Anyway, I thought that might be amusing.

Ticking all the boxes

When it comes to dating and dating sites I have often believed, well, indeed, always believed that once I find someone who ticks all the boxes it is time to stop looking! So, why is it that the one who fits my requirements perfectly has to live the other side of the planet? Somehow I now need to give this a chance because, otherwise, I’ll always wonder, what if? Buggered if I know how right now though.

Sleeping

Hmm, I am not sleeping so well. Medication makes me sleepy but, now I have this cough keeping me awake which makes me really tired most days. I am also physically irritable, not mentally but my body aches a lot more at the moment which I am putting down to tiredness … grrr

Plans

Well, I got none so, that’s that really. I have a list of things I’d really like to do but nothing I can set in stone just yet. I have a huge debt to clear yet one way or another. I can’t make plans until that’s cleared up. High up on my list of things to do would be travel, of course, as that’s my passion. Philippines if I can to see Randy, possibly New York, maybe Gran Canaria, maybe none of them annoyingly.

Glass half …

As I am familiar with my house I really don’t need to turn all the lights on. This in mind I walked into the bathroom to fill a glass with water, it’s just a small glass. So, there I am in the dark filling up this glass cleverly using a finger as a guide to when it’s near the top, I like to use my brain me!

Got back to my room to discover the glass was only half full. Thinking back, I had my damn finger under the tap!

Anyway, I thought that might be amusing.

Ticking all the boxes

When it comes to dating and dating sites I have often believed, well, indeed, always believed that once I find someone who ticks all the boxes it is time to stop looking! So, why is it that the one who fits my requirements perfectly has to live the other side of the planet? Somehow I now need to give this a chance because, otherwise, I’ll always wonder, what if? Buggered if I know how right now though.

Sleeping

Hmm, I am not sleeping so well. Medication makes me sleepy but, now I have this cough keeping me awake which makes me really tired most days. I am also physically irritable, not mentally but my body aches a lot more at the moment which I am putting down to tiredness … grrr

Plans

Well, I got none so, that’s that really. I have a list of things I’d really like to do but nothing I can set in stone just yet. I have a huge debt to clear yet one way or another. I can’t make plans until that’s cleared up. High up on my list of things to do would be travel, of course, as that’s my passion. Philippines if I can to see Randy, possibly New York, maybe Gran Canaria, maybe none of them annoyingly.

This Week

Went to see a show Tuesday in Birmingham

We had seats just near the front on the left as you look at the picture. Went along with Robin, Diana and, met Bill there who was lovely and got the tickets for us.

Having seen the film and loved it I was nervous about the play, I thought it might have lost something from the film adaptation. A strange thought really seeing as when I watched the film I was convinced they could barely have changed anything from the stage play except expand on some of the sets. Thankfully there was nothing missing, it was all there and in full colour too!

It would have been nice to stay for drinks afterwards but, it’s Birmingham, not exactly just around the corner. As it was we had to make a detour as they’d closed part of our route to roadworks so it took some time to get back. Even so, an evening out socialising over a shandy with others who turn up is quite appealing.

I’ve managed to get through some quite long days even on this medication but am still working on it, sometimes I just get too exhausted. I am aware that I am having my senses dulled so, this isn’t a cure, it’s just enabling me to cope with my situations well to hopefully get myself on the right path and then I can stop the medication because I’d have kicked the butts of my demons!

Am ploughing through Stargate SG1 and am now midway of season 4 … there are 10 seasons. Enjoying it but also noticing things I don’t think I’d have noticed had I been leaving larger gaps between episodes. Just silly things really, totally don’t matter. I’ve also noticed just how annoying the backing music is to many of the scenes. Each race has their own style, much of it sounds like Bejewelled. (This is not a good thing)

Yes, I know, the car needs cleaning, I also have two letters which need posting, gas and electric meters to read but, sod it, I am having the weekend off and relaxing. Unless he’s planned to go with anyone else I may join Sean in town tomorrow, not been for a while, might be OK. We’re out at the Toby on Sunday lunchtime, should be good if a little busy.

Wishing I was somewhere nice and hot with someone special but, being broke isn’t much helping with that one. Fingers crossed for later this year if I can without getting in debt.

Well, bed time I think, pillows still impressing me

This Week

Went to see a show Tuesday in Birmingham

We had seats just near the front on the left as you look at the picture. Went along with Robin, Diana and, met Bill there who was lovely and got the tickets for us.

Having seen the film and loved it I was nervous about the play, I thought it might have lost something from the film adaptation. A strange thought really seeing as when I watched the film I was convinced they could barely have changed anything from the stage play except expand on some of the sets. Thankfully there was nothing missing, it was all there and in full colour too!

It would have been nice to stay for drinks afterwards but, it’s Birmingham, not exactly just around the corner. As it was we had to make a detour as they’d closed part of our route to roadworks so it took some time to get back. Even so, an evening out socialising over a shandy with others who turn up is quite appealing.

I’ve managed to get through some quite long days even on this medication but am still working on it, sometimes I just get too exhausted. I am aware that I am having my senses dulled so, this isn’t a cure, it’s just enabling me to cope with my situations well to hopefully get myself on the right path and then I can stop the medication because I’d have kicked the butts of my demons!

Am ploughing through Stargate SG1 and am now midway of season 4 … there are 10 seasons. Enjoying it but also noticing things I don’t think I’d have noticed had I been leaving larger gaps between episodes. Just silly things really, totally don’t matter. I’ve also noticed just how annoying the backing music is to many of the scenes. Each race has their own style, much of it sounds like Bejewelled. (This is not a good thing)

Yes, I know, the car needs cleaning, I also have two letters which need posting, gas and electric meters to read but, sod it, I am having the weekend off and relaxing. Unless he’s planned to go with anyone else I may join Sean in town tomorrow, not been for a while, might be OK. We’re out at the Toby on Sunday lunchtime, should be good if a little busy.

Wishing I was somewhere nice and hot with someone special but, being broke isn’t much helping with that one. Fingers crossed for later this year if I can without getting in debt.

Well, bed time I think, pillows still impressing me

Medication

Well, the antidepressants seems to be doing something, annoyingly, the side effects are rather noticeable as well. Constantly tired, a sort of detached feeling and my hearing has become weird and I can’t quite describe that apart from just weird. There is another side effect which I am not writing about here and that’s a little annoying too.

As for the medication change for the allergies, it’s made no difference at all, I am still stupidly itchy. I am not sure that the sprays are a good thing either as my nose seems to be getting clogged more and more causing headaches.

To make one thing better I also changed my pillows, these new ones were £24 but are quite literally a dream. I sleep so well with them.

Medication

Well, the antidepressants seems to be doing something, annoyingly, the side effects are rather noticeable as well. Constantly tired, a sort of detached feeling and my hearing has become weird and I can’t quite describe that apart from just weird. There is another side effect which I am not writing about here and that’s a little annoying too.

As for the medication change for the allergies, it’s made no difference at all, I am still stupidly itchy. I am not sure that the sprays are a good thing either as my nose seems to be getting clogged more and more causing headaches.

To make one thing better I also changed my pillows, these new ones were £24 but are quite literally a dream. I sleep so well with them.

1st Week of Feb, time for an update

I finally got to see my GP, what fun and games that was!

I made an appointment for my own GP to call me. Our surgery is weird because we do this using an automated system between midnight and 7am. She called me in the morning, concluded I needed to see someone and made an appointment, a double, for a locum as they are several doctors short of a surgery.

The locum kept me waiting for half hour and then within the time of a single appointment she dismissed me suggesting I come back in two weeks if I didn’t feel better. I’d explained my background, how I don’t go for little things and that this has been as it is for many months but she just sent me away.

So, I got a meeting with the practise manager and explained it all to her. She arranged for me to come back for the drop-in session 2 hours later where I had to ask for the deputy manager to ensure I got seen by my GP. Saw dep manager at 3pm and she asked me to wait. I was about to call downstairs to ask if I’d been forgotten when a text came through telling my appointment was at 3:35! Eventually saw my own GP at around 3:45.

Now I am on Citalopram and she’s booked me in for counselling. I have had my medication changed for my allergies too, let’s see if that makes a difference.

On another note …

TOO MANY GAY MEN THINK WITH THEIR DICKS!

Yes, I really am fed up with so many gay men thinking sex comes before everything else. Sure, I have the age old problem of so many gay men dismissing me when they find out about what they perceive to be my ‘baggage’ but which I call my ‘family’, well, who needs that sort?! Anyone who does show an interest seems to want to have sex first and see how it goes so …

I plan to remain single. I know where I stand with me, no more messing about. I could have none of the men I’ve wanted for one reason or another so, perhaps I am only attracted to men I can’t have so why bother looking?

On another note …

Still waiting for the council to sort out the benefits mess, grrr, taking too long and costing me so much!

On another note still …

Dad moved into his flat last Saturday, he seems to be doing OK.

1st Week of Feb, time for an update

I finally got to see my GP, what fun and games that was!

I made an appointment for my own GP to call me. Our surgery is weird because we do this using an automated system between midnight and 7am. She called me in the morning, concluded I needed to see someone and made an appointment, a double, for a locum as they are several doctors short of a surgery.

The locum kept me waiting for half hour and then within the time of a single appointment she dismissed me suggesting I come back in two weeks if I didn’t feel better. I’d explained my background, how I don’t go for little things and that this has been as it is for many months but she just sent me away.

So, I got a meeting with the practise manager and explained it all to her. She arranged for me to come back for the drop-in session 2 hours later where I had to ask for the deputy manager to ensure I got seen by my GP. Saw dep manager at 3pm and she asked me to wait. I was about to call downstairs to ask if I’d been forgotten when a text came through telling my appointment was at 3:35! Eventually saw my own GP at around 3:45.

Now I am on Citalopram and she’s booked me in for counselling. I have had my medication changed for my allergies too, let’s see if that makes a difference.

On another note …

TOO MANY GAY MEN THINK WITH THEIR DICKS!

Yes, I really am fed up with so many gay men thinking sex comes before everything else. Sure, I have the age old problem of so many gay men dismissing me when they find out about what they perceive to be my ‘baggage’ but which I call my ‘family’, well, who needs that sort?! Anyone who does show an interest seems to want to have sex first and see how it goes so …

I plan to remain single. I know where I stand with me, no more messing about. I could have none of the men I’ve wanted for one reason or another so, perhaps I am only attracted to men I can’t have so why bother looking?

On another note …

Still waiting for the council to sort out the benefits mess, grrr, taking too long and costing me so much!

On another note still …

Dad moved into his flat last Saturday, he seems to be doing OK.