Autistic tenancies

 I've been aware my entire life that I'm autistic. Getting a diagnosis had never seemed useful so I didn't. 

Today is tough. Trying to help a friend out this week, putting myself out to go collect his bank card. He wanted it given to a friend of his. On Friday I did that but this morning this friend claims both he and Dennis are liars and we never have it to him! 

He just kept saying I was a liar, that he cannot possible have any responsibility here, it has to be who is mistaken. 

I've frozen the card because I have lasting power of attorney for my friend. I can't cancel it and order another as clearly this guy can't be trusted so I can't have him losing another card whilst I'm on vacation. 

What this year done is totally unsettled me. I am at a Lego event but don't want to be here, it's too noisy and who I'm with keeps bringing attention to me and I can't handle that, it's too much. 

So now I'm in full meltdown mode trying to calm down. Writing helps a bit getting my emotions out. 

I keep telling myself that I'm on holiday tomorrow, I need it. I'm under way too much pressure here and need to shut it out. 

At least I can turn my hearing aids off, that also helps a little bit.

I'm also really hurting, really hurting. I wanted to bring my mobility scooter today but, this shit this morning meant I ran out of time. 

The only downside to not getting that diagnosis is that no one knows how much I struggle. I'm not sure it would help unless they understood but maybe at least they'd understand when I said to not push me 

Happy Birthday to Me

I am now officially 62 years of age. Sure, I have at least several horrible health conditions which make my life a struggle but, struggle I shall as I am not planning on stopping any time soon.

Today, (when I wake up), I am off to London with my husband Dennis for a lovely meal, to see Wicked at the Victoria Apollo and finally Jollibee in Leicester Square.

 Should be a really good day!

Please Support Bryant

Help support my friend My friend Bryant needs your urgent help. To be honest, many also may well do but, right now this is about Bryant. Click the link to contribute

I am calling on those in the UK, particularly from the Philippines community to show some love for the motherland.

Bryan has been a good friend to me. In truth, when I fell asleep at the wheel in the Philippines last year, he saved not only my life but also that of my amazing mother-in-law but also my sister-in-law. Himself too obviously.

He helped me when I got in a bind dealing with some things there I was frankly out of my depth on for which I am very grateful.

He now needs my help. If I had the money I would help myself but, it's just beyond me. 

Bryant needs urgent surgery to remove his gallbladder. If he doesn't get it the prognosis is terrible, very likely, fatal. They already got loans, borrowed from family and sold what very little they have. That covered the medical bills to date but, the surgery is a dream away. 

I would like us to raise £4000 to cover the cost of surgery and any other complications. Once cured Bryant will be able to work and support his mum again who is absolutely adorable.

Mum has already lost one of her three sons, losing Bryant as well will break her heart.

You don't know Bryant, he's just another foreigner maybe. What he represents though is a hard working country and a nation where it is so difficult to get out of poverty. Where too many die for the sake of funds which we take for granted with our health service in the UK.