Autistic tenancies

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 I've been aware my entire life that I'm autistic. Getting a diagnosis had never seemed useful so I didn't. 

Today is tough. Trying to help a friend out this week, putting myself out to go collect his bank card. He wanted it given to a friend of his. On Friday I did that but this morning this friend claims both he and Dennis are liars and we never have it to him! 

He just kept saying I was a liar, that he cannot possible have any responsibility here, it has to be who is mistaken. 


I've frozen the card because I have lasting power of attorney for my friend. I can't cancel it and order another as clearly this guy can't be trusted so I can't have him losing another card whilst I'm on vacation. 

What this year done is totally unsettled me. I am at a Lego event but don't want to be here, it's too noisy and who I'm with keeps bringing attention to me and I can't handle that, it's too much. 

So now I'm in full meltdown mode trying to calm down. Writing helps a bit getting my emotions out. 

I keep telling myself that I'm on holiday tomorrow, I need it. I'm under way too much pressure here and need to shut it out. 

At least I can turn my hearing aids off, that also helps a little bit.

I'm also really hurting, really hurting. I wanted to bring my mobility scooter today but, this shit this morning meant I ran out of time. 

The only downside to not getting that diagnosis is that no one knows how much I struggle. I'm not sure it would help unless they understood but maybe at least they'd understand when I said to not push me 

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