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Ronery

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  Now, joking apart ... Because of the changes in my life the past few months I am feeling really isloated. No one has done anything wrong but, I feel like that 5 year old kid again in hospital, on my own, listening to matron telling my family that it's only one visitot at a time and strictly adult immediate family. Nothing was personal anymore. WHen they needed a urine sample I was stood there with 2 to 3 nurses encouing me to fill up the bottle. It was so humilating. I think they meant well but I didn't like it. Back then, in the 60s & 70s hospital stays were always at least 2 weeks. On one occasion, because I was so short, at 5 they put me in a cot. Moving forward nearly 60 years and my health has taken a turn for the worse. With the NHS being so rubbish how, I don't get the treatment I need/ No one doctor is overseeing everyting. I have several departments stricltly focussing on the symptoms, no one seems to be looking at the cause. So, over the last year I went fro...

Appreciation

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This video speaks for itself

When will the Philippines learn?

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 Dynasties Aquino Marcos Duterte Yes, there are others but, they're all the same. They are dynasties not there to make the country better but, rather, themselves more popular and richer. Did you know that if someone is one of the big families like this, they're 22% more likely to get in positions of power (I read) Until the corruption stops at the bottom, it'll just carry on at the top. Honestly, the talent, love and dedication of the people deserve better than this few families keeping your country down. Not a single one is clear of corruption, each promised and didn't deliver (unless it suited them). Just look at how they have their name, literally in some cases, on so much. King CHarles, the late Queen Elizabeth, Prince George who will become King after his father, Prince William We have a monarchy here, the closest we have to what the Philippines has. The difference is, we realised centuries ago that no one can rule a country by the coincidence of birth and, as such...

I can no longer taste right and it sucks

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Around the spring of 2025 I had what might have been covid (again). Since then, my ability to taste and has been mainly zero. Back some 20+ years ago I had surgery which damaged a nerve in my face, that took away much of my taste too but I learnt to taste again, mainly through my nose (I didn't know the the nose had tastebuds either) but, this year, it's not got better. I guess having two expensive all inclusive vacations wasn't the best idea given the circumstances. Now and then I think I taste something else, I taste what feels like the memory of something and, quite often, I taste what I smell and that's bizarre if it isn't what I am eating. I'm awaiting a call from the doctor just now but, this could be me and I don't like it. This has made food unpleasant. I now struggle with the whole concept of it. If I smell something nice and see it, the reality is, I cannot taste it. This makes me socially incapable of food related conversation. It also makes it se...

I don't want to do this but ...

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  I had to search that earlier. Although my son Jermaine is only 38 years old I have been told so many times how he's not going to live long, prepare myself for the inevitable and so on. Finally, he's got an amount of money he can afford to buy a funeral plan which I hope suits the needs of everyone. Sadly, there is no way we can go the whole hog and have flashy cars, Cathedral and so on so it will be a simple affair. He will be collected, when he passes, from where ever he is, taken to a funeral home where he can be visited and then taken for cremation with his ashes collected afterwards. How can I write about this? I am trying very hard to pretend this is someone else, I cannot deal with the reality of who it actually is. Back in 1986 I remember my nan telling someone that, no parent should ever have to bury their child. That is for sure true. Of course, it is also true that no son should have to bury his mother but, that is one of life's realities. The money came from hi...

Finally, a good July 10

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Autistic tenancies

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 I've been aware my entire life that I'm autistic. Getting a diagnosis had never seemed useful so I didn't.  Today is tough. Trying to help a friend out this week, putting myself out to go collect his bank card. He wanted it given to a friend of his. On Friday I did that but this morning this friend claims both he and Dennis are liars and we never have it to him!  He just kept saying I was a liar, that he cannot possible have any responsibility here, it has to be who is mistaken.  I've frozen the card because I have lasting power of attorney for my friend. I can't cancel it and order another as clearly this guy can't be trusted so I can't have him losing another card whilst I'm on vacation.  What this year done is totally unsettled me. I am at a Lego event but don't want to be here, it's too noisy and who I'm with keeps bringing attention to me and I can't handle that, it's too much.  So now I'm in full meltdown mode trying to cal...