Family

 

This an AI picture just to represent family

I watched a TV programme earlier and there was a young girl on there, reminded me very much of my dear granddaughter.

For whatever reason I have been cut off, surplus to requirements. It's only been nearly two weeks but, I miss them all so much and, as always, I blame myself, I obviously missed something I should have seen.

It reminds me of missing out on having a niece or nephew when my father created a reason for me and my sister to become estranged for around 25 years. I know they existed yet, I was and am nothing to either of them.

Why do families fall apart over such crazy things?

I disowned my own father. I was right to do so. However, in so many ways I cherish the last few years of his life which I shared with him. His condition had made him forget all the hatred he had and for the first time in my life I got to like him. Some of it must have to have been true, it cannot all be the dementia speaking. But, somehow, he remembered I was his son and yet had forgotten how much he disliked me, how much of a disappointment I was to him for not sharing his passions.

Sure, I know it was fake but, it allowed me just for that time to grasp what life could have been like without the bitterness.